I’ve never registered for a marathon and not run it before. Even New York in 2009, which I was poorly trained for and knew it. But I’m not running Marine Corps in October. I kept waffling, going back and forth, and changing my mind. However, a 14 mile training run a couple of weeks ago sealed the deal. I was totally miserable after about 10 miles and had no motivation to finish the run. I did, but I basically shuffled through the last 4 miles.
In every training cycle, there are long runs that suck. But this training cycle, I haven’t had a long run yet that didn’t suck. And, I am a long run lover. I generally actually look forward to settling into the long run. It’s the speedwork- the tempos and intervals and repeats- that I hate. This time around, I’ve been dreading all the runs, long and slow, short and fast, and everywhere in between. Plus, I am just over the getting up, pumping before the run, leaving the bottle for the husband to feed Baby Will when he wakes up, trudge through the long run, etc.
When I made the decision not to run, even though I felt bummed about it, I also felt an enormous amount of relief, so I am pretty confident this is the right decision for me and my family right now. I really underestimated how much energy nursing a baby requires, and I underestimated how much time and energy are being consumed by our house renovation. Tripling the size of your house, putting a second floor on it, demo-ing the current garage and deck, and finding a rental to live in while you do it is actually pretty stressful. Who knew?
I’m still running, of course. My mental health requires it. I haven’t been going further than 9 miles or so since I made the decision to drop out and I have to say, I’m enjoying the freedom to only run as far as I want. I’m targeting an October half, but haven’t picked a race yet. Suggestions welcome! Preferably in the DC or Atlanta areas.
I hear the boss stirring in his crib so I better go fetch him before he lets me know of his displeasure with the lack of prompt service around this place.